I've seen myself fall
Then get back up on my feet
But this is just something
That makes me want to fleet
This pain was truly unknown
To my own heart
This feeling is literally
Tearing me apart
I weep to sleep
And to only find
The us we used to be
But that's now far behind
I can't stop thinking
Of you now a days
Staring out into space
Lost in another daze
But to only find your hatred
Growing toward me
And see the love we once knew
Washed out to sea
How can I take back the pain
But now I know,
Your happy
And I'm still left in woe
At time I just want to call
But know it wont amount to anything
So here I sit sulking in misery
As soft melodies I sing
I pray to forget you
So I won't have to hurt anymore
But only to find myself
End up loving you even more
I pray for this pain to stop
But its just getting worse
This agony feels
Like a curse
My head filled with
So much confusion
I just want everything
To come to a final conclusion


*this is really what I'm going through at the moment*