we were classmates when we were in grade 6 when i was a shy newly transferred student. i didn't know that we were classmates until we reach our high school when i had became a talkative girl and a girlfriend of mine told me that j4e was our classmate. i ask j4e if that was true and he said yes. he even said that i was seated next to him on the very first day of school. i could not believe myself for not having even one single memory of him. well, that makes me sound stupid but then who can blame a newly transferred girl who only knew how to sit still and keep quite until the class ends? i looked at our class album and then he was there- standing straight and tall with that big smile. i did not even knew that his parents knew my parents.


when we reach our first year high school he was being tease to one of our classmate. she was also nice, pretty and came from a well off family. they are indeed a good pair. i was even thrilled with their love team but as the days and months went by, it was obvious that j4e and i were having what we call a chemistry. i did not intend it to be that way or steal the guy that my classmate had a crush on but then it just happened. his family were inviting us to spend Christmas or dinners to nice places i have not gone to. we became good friends. he was
so easy to be with because he was nice and was raise from a good family-
a very soft spoken and warmhearted family . he was thought of good
manners, how to be a gentleman and what was even great is that we share
the same faith. he does not have any vices, very talented and is
intelligent. he was very vocal with what he was feeling and his actions
coincides with what he says. he is big on trust. he is also good at
sports and his first love was basketball. attitudes matters to me and
what make things great was he  also looks good. but then, i am not
describing a perfect guy here. he still has some flaws but when have
problems, he won't swear or do stupid things, instead he would talk
about it and discuss it in a very sweet manner.every one ws now thinking that we were already a couple because we behave like one. unfortunately, we were not-i knew i don't even have the right to be jealous when his with our girlfriends and so was he. our relationship continued that way until we reach our 3rd year that things has changed. his dad was coming home from a long time of working in states. his mom was anxious that she stated monitoring j4e. since j4e kept on forgetting his phone and other gadgets, i was her only means of communication. she keeps on calling and would ask for an update.
one day when i entered our classroom, i saw a very big word written on our blackboard saying that j4e is much better if his with k6e. i was hurt and jealous. i then heard from my best friend that a senior of ours (who is also k6e's bestfriend) saw j4e at the garden on deep thinking. when asked, j4e said that his mom is starting to monitor him and that bothers him even if he loves his mom. he said it was me whom his mom keeps on asking.  then girls are starting to back stabbed me, telling things like why can't i just tell his mom a lie to stop controlling j4's life. was i controlling his life? was i not just giving respect to his mom by doing her a favor? was i hurting j4e's feelings without noticing it or was he only nice to me because his a gentleman? i was confuse and hurt. every night i would cry because i had no more friends left. one day, his mom asked me what was j4e was doing, i said that he was late for our next class and that i did not knew were he was (but i already have an idea because i knew him already) then his mom was obviously mad so i ask her not to scold j4e for today. she asked why. she asked if j4e was angry at me or blaming me for his situation. i said no (when in fact its our friends who is making things difficult for us) then the following morning, their maid told me that j4e was asked by his mom if he was angry at me, he was quite(i was hurt). she then told him not to blame me because she was the one making the phone calls and i was just answering her questions ( i was relieved). i decided not to attend class the following day because i don't know how to face backstabbing friends. my cousin exposed my plans and i received a letter from the girls that i must attend( they must be afraid). so i decided to attend class and i was greeted with fake smiles the next day.oh how i want to end the my high school life!!! so i decided to avoid j4e and to totally gave him to k6e.. i started to give him cold expressions and the i-don't-care behavior. he asked me one day why i was so unlike me. i just give him a questioning look and went away. i knew i hurt him and i was hurting my myself too but if that is the only way girls would stop backstabbing me then i would risk our relationship. he is then starting to distance himself and i was glad and sad at the same time.he is now spending more time with k6e and i was so jealous. i don't know how to act when we cross our path specially that everyone is looking at how i am going to respond. i hated j4e for a moment for not even thinking why i was doing it or for not even knowing that i was doing it purposely. but the following week turned out to be unexpected. we were in the basketball court, forming a very big circle. we were playing a game and you have to do the consequence. j4e was asked to bring the girl that he likes in the center of the court. eventually, he asked me to come with her. the cheering went wild and i was happy but i could see the disappointed look of k6e. i tried to rationalized that i was nearer to him that is why he choose me. then he officially courted me the following day, telling that we have to give it a shoot, but then i was too scared what everyone is going to think. i could not endure 1 year of class having him but being ridiculed by some people that are around us. so i said no. and that made me regret, reunions are not easy since j4e and k6e are official. now after 2 years of recovery, we are going to have our reunion again as elementary friends  and i am hoping to fix things before j4e is going to migrate to states after he would graduate from nursing school.now i have heard htat they broke up. i was glad that we are just having reunions for those who have been classmates in elementary and k6e was not included, but unfortunately it is going to be held in her house(i dont know why).