i still dream of what love is like and i dont mean the kind that hurt me b4 i mean the real thing that doesnt hurt me...
when the x cheated and lied to me it was like my heart was tearing in half and peice by peice i was suddenly nothing to him any more...
and it surprises me that i still hope for that knight in shining armor after all that the x put me through...
he is jealous of me tho and i know he is because all of his friends are tryin to talk to me and i have 4 colleges lookin at me i mean i have a future all thats in store for him is a baby with someone 4 years older than him and i know she is gonna get sick of him watch...
his friends dont want to hang out with him they all call me to hang out because they say he is boring now and that all he does is sit around and that at least when he was with me he was fun well he chose his path and i have chosen mine...
i really like this guy named well lets call him "mike"... he is one of the x's friends and he is 19 he calls me beautiful and he is a lot better at treating girls right than the x is and he has already cheated on her...
"mike" is against it and i can talk to him i told him about the little one i lost because of the x and i hope that maybe this will turn into something good!...