Dear ????, the love of my life, or so I thought. I have so much to say to you, so many confusing thoughts and bottled up feelings that I‘ve held inside long enough now. Even though you’ll probably never read this letter, because I’ll never have the guts to give it to you, I still need to let all this shit out. I know it sounds pathetic maybe even a little scary that I call you the love of my life when we’ve technically only talked  one time but I can’t explain it ,its like…..dam you got me so fucked up right now, I can’t even  think straight …..dam boy what   did you do to me. And the fucked up thing about it is that I don’t even know what has me this crazy. Is it your eyes? Your voice? Your style? The way your family talks about you? Or is it how good I get along with your family, and maybe I just wanna be a part of that. I really don’t know what it is, and that pisses me off because people ask me what it is about you that has me like this …..and I can’t give them a straight answer. I throw little thing out there but none of it explains, why this feels like love. Am I crazy, obsessed , WHAT THE FUCK IS IT .  I  know I’m in love  with you , this has to be real ,the feeling is too  strong and too painful not to be real …..but it don’t even matter because no matter what I feel  if you don’t feel the same way….. then I’m fucked. Because now I gotta walk around with this  pain  in my heart , the pain of being in love with somebody who don’t love me back.

                                 Love
                                   Your gurl forever