 | it startEd weN in june... i saW ds gUy, itagO natin siyA sa naMe na 'piKot'... weN i 1st saw him, i instantlY gOt a cruSh on him... daYs passed, he's always making daaN to oUr rooM, as in walAng mintis, & later on, i juSt realiZed, na may kulang sa daY ko pag di ko siya nakitA...
nagkasaMa pa kami sa isanG proGram ng skUl, were noT strangers, but wer nOt frieNds... meJo sikAt kasi siYa sa campUs...
deN 1 day, my friend, borroWed my fone, & he said..."itxmate mo to, siguradong matutuwa ka, thanks me later" i asked him the name oF the textmate and he said that its 'pikot'.. of courSe i goT excited... so i texteD him aNd greetEd him oN tHe nice performaNce at the danCe sa pRograM naMin... i never thoT na magrereply siyA... but he did...=)
aND so we becaMe frienDs... namamanSin na siyA pag nagkikita kaMi... after 1 moNth, he texted me askiNg permission 4 uS to have a private taLk... pumayG namAn ako... there he confesses hiS love... aNd afTer oNe monTh of courtship, sinagoT ko siyA... as in, i was super happy, he was the perfect boyfriend, wala na akong mahihiling pa, he's sweet, understanding, aNd olwez looking after my welfare... we did have soMe trials bUt we triumphantly conquered them...
wen we reached oUr 2 monThs anniversary, i haD this straNge feeling, i feel, na paraNg may mawawaLa sa Akin... di ko na lang pinansin yung feeling ko na yun, buT i gues, tama ang kutob ko, coZ before that week ended, he changed, di na siya yung dati kong kakilala, i gaVe him some spAce...
he said that his xgf came bak, the girl whom he shared to me before... i never really thot that ds wud happen to us, but i guess, things are just meant to be that way... kailangan niyang mamili sa aming dalawa, ang present niya which is ako, oR yung past niya... masakit para sa akin, to think na may doubt siya, meaning he's unsure of my love for me despite the tyms that we've been together... i got tired of waiting so i said..."im setting u free... erase me from ur choices..." he strongly replied... "ayoko, i wont set you free... ur mine.." napapa isip ako coZ bakit siya ganun, gusto ba niyang dalwa kaming girl sa buhay niya...? ang sakit coZ he is my 1st love pa naman, and grabe ang heartache na dinulot niya sa akin, gusto ko na sana siyang i=let go, pero, ayaw niya... ika nga..."the heartache of holding, is better that the heartache of losing..." tama ba toh? what shud i do? |  |
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