I dont quite Love you, but im not qquite sure. Im scared to love. Im the only one you ever respect, and im afraid that will change over time. Are you just nice to me because youre trying to pull me in? I get really scared thinking of that and everything else, like your lifestyle, do i really want to live like that? and the other things that you to live and deal with. Am i gonna let that bring me down? You just dont understand my point of view and i wish you did. see, i really like you i just wish you had a better lifestyle (a mom you got along with, someone who respects thier family, someone who wasnt already a daddy.)  Why cant this be easier? I feel that i always fall for the wrong guy, First a user who just wanted sex (btw, he didnt get it), second, a druggie. and now someone who already has a kid and no respect to anyone but me(for now anyways) It never works out.



i wrote this awhile back, and i am now dating the guy its about and its been a few months and still goin strong. i love him very much. he is better than what i saw in the first place. he respects me in every way, and listens to what i have to say. i just hope we stay this way for a long while. =]