hi,im torn.most of you dont know me...hell, the only one here that really KNOWS me broke my heart--- Anyways....
i need some help.i told a few people about the trip ill be taking next summer to austrailia but the problem is....im scared to go.
yeah,ill be away from home the first time,but thats not what scares me. im scared because my very best friend-my ONLY best friend has started to view me differently and i feel alot...deeper than he does. do i love him?yes,but i dont know if its that kind of love (hes not my phoenix), but hes one of the only people in the world i would die for- besides jayla,thia, zedan and skarred.;)
how am i supposed to leave him a whole summer??iv felt this way about one other person before, and now he wont even answer an EMAIL.zak is different....i know he is.... im just scared to lose him. love is blind, and ignorance is bliss... do i tell him how i feel and risk everything we have or suffer in silence and hope to meet the poet/writer of my dreams in lovelandia???
please help this deluded mind,for right now her mind is spinning.
sincerely, your worst nightmare,
xxtornxx