I'm sorry hun:(

It's ok, just made a lot of mistakes.... I look at them and remember a love that could change the world... Promises said by both sides and even seeing all that happened I believe in those promises.... Even through it all... And at the same time I see what we've become.... And I wonder if this is some kind of nightmare

Things like this...


i know we're effed up... but i dont care... i want that with you. would you do me a favor... just one? Tell me how you feel right now... tell me if you think this is gonna happen... i want to know what i should do... because to be honest... im at a loss right now. i know what i WANT to happen, and what i HOPE you want to happen, but... do you? i dont want a lie... i want the full out honest brutal truth... ... lies will f my life up more than you could imagine... i dont want to be the girl he had on the side... i want to be the one.... i want to know how you see me right now... and i know you dont think about me like that.... but i guess my BRAIN is overreacting to my mother... im hurting and i need you i guess. lol. =] save me from insanity?