i have had many loves and lost almost all.. i married and divorced but he always stayed by me he could not be there in person but there in letter he has been locked up for a verylong time but he has always been there for me I may have not always talked to him but i always dream bout him and i know when he needed me to write him when he was down or blue or the one he loved hurt him too i was always there somethimes i didn't react on the feeling but i knew we had a baby when we was lil and i give her for adoption and he knew but did nothing and we was just kids and he was my 1st everything he gave me all he could for a 16 year old i missed him i loved him and i went on had some other kids and now he says that he has always felt his heart tug twards mine i love his man and i never stopped could it be possiable to stop once you start there has always been part of me missing and when i talk to him i don't feel like that anymore he asked me to be with him and wait and i said how could i, i was married and that was not even a month ago and now my husband that is still my husband went to jail for beating me up and one time my baby daddy he said that he could 4give for alot of things but to know that i went back to some one for going upside my head he would not respect me the same and now that my husband and i don't talk or anything i feel a relief and i want to wait for my baby daddy i feel that he has always been the one just not at that time.... but now it is a wating game and it is not that long the rest of this year and next he is the only one that i have had in my dreams so he is the only one i can say is the man of my dreams