You are the only person in my world that can cripple me. I don't
know why. Or maybe I do, and can't bring myself to admit to it, or face it.
I've wanted to tell you so many things, I have so many planned speeches...but
somehow when I get around you, the words just can't come out. I was scared of
losing you, more than once, and I couldn't believe that this was all happening
again. I know what you are going through, because I am going through it too. So
please tell me why we couldn't get through it together? Does she really
understand it? Or is it something else? It has to be. I pray it is. I
constantly ask myself why being there for you and caring about you wasn't
enough. Isn't that supposed to be everything? When I think of how close I came
to actually feeling like we could be everything, I can't help but think of how
naive I was. And still am I guess. I definitely don't fall easy, but when I do
I do hard I suppose. You're the only one who's truly had enough of me to break
my heart. And because of you I feel so bitter and jaded.