from the 1st day i saw you
to the last breath i watched you take
i never knew that day was the last time i would see you
i had always exspected it to happen
but never realized how soon it would come
you just wound up on the wrong road
took a wrong turn somewhere in life
our family was alread in so much grief,
and then you had to fall too
but its not your fault
you always seemd to know your doomed day would come
but you never admited it
although i knew you were afraid for your life
on a day to day bases i could see the pain
some much came out through your eyes
even one glance would say a thousand words
i never knew to how much extent being in a gang would be
until i lost you
how much pain and hurt it could cause
how one could just take away another life
only because of a color
its much like racism, why fight for a color?
i'd rather live life as if i were color blinde
so much easier it would be
no more would another person fall to the gang scene
so many fall into the trap and most dont make it out
theres no ecscaping death itsall around
but why put yourself right in where it starts?
although it doesnt make sence i know you never ment to
you may feel like you let us down because you were the oldest
but trust me, you never let me down
no matter how many meaningless fights i always looked up to you
i knew who you were when we were kids
some how the hard life changed you
but i will never forget the good memories we had
we may not have ended on good term but you are my brother
you are my family and my friend and i hope you sleep well
and maybe one day when it is my time to go i will see you
i will mee t you at the crossroads with all of the other fallen
oh, and while your up there say hi to dad for me.
you were dedicated to you gang i just wish it were to something better
although you may not be here physicaly
everyone will have you in there hearts
you will be missed and never forgoten.
R.I.P Anthony Hudsin...my brother and friend.
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