 | ... Can you tell me how to be happy
when all of the people whom I gave my
trust knocked me down?
... How can I still smile each day
knowing that here I am, found myself
mourning again and feeling so
restless, knowing that I just risked
my heart believing that he would give
me happiness?
...Would you condemn me if I would
tell you that part of me wants to let
go and move on? And the other part
wants to stay? I know what’s wrong and
right, I know what’s good and bad. But
could you tell me where exactly I
belong?
... Do you hate me coz I learned how
to love the person whom I thought
would make me feel better?
... Is it my fault not knowing that my
happiness gives sadness to those
people who’s been there all along? And
would it be better for me to throw
away that happiness for them, thinking
that it would be the last hope that I
got? As if I’m throwing the best part
of my life?
... Could it be the right move for all
of the people involve? Do you think
it’s fair for all? Including me? Or am
I too egotistic that all I’m talking
about is how I feel?
... Am I? Still too selfish that all
this time I wanted to get out of this
emotional sickness that I have since I
don’t know when? And he’s the only
person who helped me to feel better
each day?
... Did you ever think that when he
betrayed me, he took the last hope
that I have in me? Did you consider
that I was also hurt by the fact of
life? Or you just see me as a person
who doesn’t even care?
... Too much questions in my head.
We’re all victims here; I still need
to mourn upon the death of something
in me, a part of me who believes in
him, piece of me who died when he
betrayed me.
... So please have a heart for me,
this is the only thing that I could
do. Let me cry, let me weep. For the
last time let me feel the love that I
thought was real, let me grieve. Never
to criticize me, as you just don’t
know me, and you just don’t know that
what I feel for him is real! I need to
feel the pain and I need to let my
heart bleed, for it was the only thing
that makes sense to me now! Please.... |  |
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