i got with a guy in june 2004 (gavin) but i met him thro a friend and due to him workin away we didnt meet up till the october tht year but i hadalready fell for him big time over the phone. we were together a month wen he cheated on my i was heartbroken. i took him back. he was wanted by the police in manchester and he knew if he came home he would get locked up but he took the chance so tht we could be together. anyway he got locked up in the november 2005 and got out in the feb 2005. we were head over heels in love i met his daughter who was 3 at the time. i adore her and would do anythink for her. her mum wasnt the best of parents so i looked after her alot. after 8mnth she started to call me mum thro her own choice as she practically lived with me. everyfin she owns i payed for. i even done her room up at her mums house. gavin got locked up agen in may 2006 nd got out in september 06. we were still very loved up but started arguin alot due to lack of trust. i have never cheated on him. we broke up alot but always got bk 2geva. we moved in a nice 3 bedroom house in may 07 and our relationship went downhill i couldnt go anywhere without oin back to an arguement so i stopped goin anywhere altogether. gavin was never home he would go out from 10am till 12pm. i started putting my fingers down my throat after every meal and slitting my wrists. ive been in hospital 5 times last year and he dint show his face at the hospital not once. i was workin and in college and still found time to cook clean n try spend time with him but like i said he was never home. i fell pregnant in the july we were both over the moon but i lost the baby the doctors said it was thro stess and not eating. me and gavin finished on september the 19 07 and i moved back to my mums. gvin got with his step sister and i got with another guy i was with him a week and called it off i knew i still loved gavin. he stayed with his step sis (carla) up untill december 07 as far as i know, but the whole time we were seperated we kept in contact well he only fned me wen he was down. i was so hurt and felt used. anyway recently he told me they broke up and he wanted me bck. so we give it a shot but i called it off wen he said he werent readi to tell ppl we were 2geva i was scared he was usin me and he was still with her due to him tellin me she wasnt puttin out. last thu we spoke for hours on the fone abwt how were goin to make it work and he told me to ring him in the mornin but alwk he has rejected my calls n not replied to my texts. i dont think he loves me and i havent for abwt 9mnth. i txt him last nyt sayin i cnt take no more and callin him alsorts. is he playing me for a fool? please help