I haven't really been the most honest person when it comes to relationships,
and i wasn't even honest in the beginning of the relationship i am in now.

I have hurt just about ever one that i have tried to be in a relationship with.
I have lied, cheated, and hurt my girlfriend in pretty much every way possible...

My girlfriend has threatened to leave me many times, and every time i try and tell her
how much I'm going to change and be a better person / boyfriend.
I feel like I do change every time, but for the longest time it's only been little baby steps.

Until the past month or so when i realized out, this girl is so good for me,
she has showed me that i can't go out and flirt with every girl i see just because i am in college,
and that is what i think college guys do.

My past affects our relationship almost every other day. She will be happy and so in love with me one day
and the next she totally hates me and i can't even get close to her.

It took me 10 months to finally change out of my old 'player' ways and realize this girl is the one i love
and want to spend the rest of my life with.

I just hope its not too late for us, and that my past doesn't stop us from having the great amazing relationship
that i know we could have.