My first boyfriend was a boy that I had know since 4th grade.I had kept the secret that I liked him from everyone even my bestfriend for 3 years, until I told her on July 3, 2003.I just couldn't stand it anymore it was driving me nuts so I had to tell someone.Every year our town sets off fireworks down by the lake and we, my mom sister and Angela my bestfriend went down there to watch them around 10pm.And just like I had thought as soon as Angela saw him she had to go and tell him that I liked him.Then everyone in our small town knew, news travels fast.Although tell her and her telling him was the best thing that has ever happened to me.We had this summer program for school just starting that we all went to and we got to take field trips.The first place about 10 of us out of our class went to was, the aquatic center.We even got to stay after they closed for about 2 hours when everyone else left.That is when we started to spend more and more time together.The first time he kissed me was in my backyard when I was in the middle of talking to him, after that my whole body was tingley and I didnt know what to say I could barely move.After that in august everyone took a trip to Seattle to woodland park zoo where we spent the night.Although I didnt really pay attention to the animals me and him were to busy talking while we walked, the tour was like 3 hours and all we did was talk.The next day we got to go to the space neddle, we walked around and held hands while we looked at everything from up there.Which kind of made Angela made because I wasnt paying attention to her.When we were at school lots of people laughed at us but it didnt really bug us at all.No one really like the idea that we were together because im the straight A student, he is the one with not so good grades, a trouble maker and the one with the short temper.But when we were together he was sweet and nice and he could always make you laugh.Angela tried hard after we started going out to break us up, she didnt like him at all she hated him.But I didnt and I always found a way sometimes so I could be with both of them, especially since I was her only friend.When she started trying to get us apart she would tell me things that he so callled said about me, and at the time since she was my bestfriend I naturally believed her.She went as far as, one day she told his friends that I was going to break up with him,so they all told him to break up with me first, it took him a few hours to do it but he did.And I spent several hours crying in the girls bathroom.After he heard that I was in there crying he told me that one of his friends said I was going to break up with him so he should do it first.We both didnt find out it was Angela until months later.We were together for almost a year still dodging all the attempts Angela tried, when his mom told him that she didnt want him to see me anymore, though she never did say why.Yeah and that lasted about two months but it was to hard for both of us to have to see eachother in school and not be able to actually be together.So when school was up and summer was back we would meet down at the park or just walk around town and talk for hours, that is once again until our parents found out we had been seeing eachother.Then after that the only time we saw eachother was at school or on the bus ride home.Two year later in 2006 we started to spend more time together just as friend, until he asked me out agian.He wasnt actually suppose to his mom didnt want him to date anyone at all for quit a while becuase of school, even though I wasnt in the same school anymore.And once agian when she found out, we had to stop seeing eachother.My mom though didnt have a problem with him at all she totally approved.The day that he came and told me that she had found out, he told me that he loved me and that it just wasnt the right time, but he knew that we would be together agian.I dont see him much anymore, but when I do he has the same look still in his eyes, that looked that he would have when he said I love you.My heart still skips a beat when I see him, and when we talk it is like nothing has changed.Im still the only one that can come near him or talk to him when he has had a bad day and is in a horible mood, and im the only one that he will say I love you to. I heard a girlfriend of his say it once but he wouldnt say it back.So we are both still waiting for that right time when we can be together agian.Yes I know he is the first person I fell in love with but he is the only person it feels right to be in love with.It is an unexplainable feeling that I have when Im with him, plus he has my whole heart not just a little piece.Some people have told me just to let go of him.Maybe one day I will, but that is going to be far from today.