For the first time
In a long time,
I find myself alone.
No one 2 lean on,
Or no one 2 call my own.
No one 2 share things with,
No one 2 care.
I wonder if in anyone's heart,
Is love 4 me still there?
It's been so long since
I've felt truly loved.
I've had several relationships but,
Only one was sent from above.
I wonder if god is punshing me,
Or if loneliness is my destiny.
Will love ever resurface 4 me again,
Or is it only on my love that i can depend?
I just want someone who will love & find
Beauty in my flaws.
Someone who love's the true me & gives
Me their heart & all.
Am i kidding myself, does love like this even exist?
Maybe 4 some but, i've have yet but once experience it.
Late at night, i sit & look up at the dark blue sky,
Cry my lonely cries & wonder where the future lies.
Damn, i hate it when i feel like this,
But, this is life & unfortunately it's a BITCH!
I know things will get better but, some of
These storms are hard 2 weather.
I fight & fight as hard as i can but
Sometimes i'm just like, WHATEVER!
I often wonder the outcome but,
It's no use because my book is already written.
I'll just wait patiently alone cuz....
Only god knows my happy ending! :-)

~Written from the heart~

By: Ms.Cordia Rachelle Crawford