I feel so shit tonight.

We just had an argument and even though

you’re the one in the wrong, I somehow still want to say:

“Sorry! Please forgive me!”

You make me feel wrong even when I know I’m right.

How do you do it?

How do you make me feel so small?

All I want to do is sit and cry.

I feel so stupid.. And useless..

Tonight you crossed the line.. Tonight you insulted me..

You called me something I didn’t like..

And I couldn’t even snap back at you properly.

I thought I was getting somewhere.. I thought I was finally in control..

But you just took it all back and it hit me ten times harder.

My heart feels battered and bruised.

I’m bleeding and all you do is sit and watch me..

Every fight.. Every insult.. Every tear..

Kills me a little bit inside each time.

I just wish I could stop feeling this pain.

Why are you just sitting watching me drown? Watching me die..

Everyone says I have to leave you..

That I deserve better.. That I can get better.

But for some reason I just cant let you go..

I want you and only you..

You tell me that you love me but I don’t think I believe that anymore.

I think your lies have stopped working on me..

And that’s a shame because they were your main weapon.

Maybe one day you’ll see us for what we could have been

And when you do, I’ll have hopefully left you and I wont be coming back.