I've wanted to write this for awhile,
I need it out of my system,
Whether in words or in blood,
I need to get it out for its ENOUGH!

I liked you, once upon a time,
I got over you, not that long ago,
But now I miss you, And i don't understand so.
How is it that you can cure,
But it comes back and strikes you,
Worse than it was before.

I close my eyes tonight,
And all i thought about was you,
Not the one my heart I gave to,
I thought of him long enough,
But he forgot me the moment I said yes.

Tonight I dreamt of you lover boy,
The one I held on to in my childhood core,
The one I looked for in every room,
That tall young man I looked into,
And saw a good guy with a sharp unforgiving tongue.

Why is it that you,
Took advantage of the special care I gave you,
You used me lover boy,
And yet I still loved you,
You treated me worse than anyone else,
So guess what lover boy,
I came out as a fox and a tiger at once,
Said all I had to say,
And never regretted it.

But now I admit,
I miss the intelligent conversations we had,
It's difficult to talk crap with all the other boys,
Cause it gets me no where,
Except feeling like a whore.

I miss being able to look into your eyes,
Being comfortable there,
Even when you look back,
I'm not afraid.
But after a shatter of glass confidence,
I am no more there.

I can't look into anyone's eyes,
I can't tell who am I to the one I love,
For even If I am honest, he judges me,
And that is all I can feel.