i don't know if i want her back again... i am afraid... don't know why..

You have realized your mistake and regretted over it. Its good. But at the same time you must be committed not to commit this again and be always sincere and honest to. I pray he/she comes back to your arms and embraces you with the same love with the hope you will never again cheat him/her.
with you good luck.

i know how that feels.... except i never cheated on them i just broke up with them because i thought i wanted something and someone else (its a long story.... lol don't ask) and now i realize that i made a mistake and that i them really bad and i just wanna make up for it some how... even though i probubly never will be able to fully i wanna try because i really do love them and regret hurting them..... :( and haveing to beg them really is the hardest part and the part that hurts the most because then you realize just how bad you hurt them... :(
well good luck to you i hope everything works out for you.... :)