6'0, blue eyes, dark hair; that's what you see me for,
Just another ordinary boy; stupid at times, smart, big, stupid funny, random,
That's what you see me for,
I've been so caught up living in my own creation, my own fantasies,
That I've failed to see reality, for what it really is,
I can understand things, things that I never understood before,

Your perspective of me, is it the whole me?
Or is it frankly that, I keep things bottled up, growing colder year by year,
With this burden on me, seeming to get heavier,
Am I going to live up to these expectations?
Or am I going to fall under pressure?

Am I hiding myself from the society to prevent me from being hurt?
Or am I just trying to cover up the fact that I'm vulnerable to heartbreaks?
These questions that I ask myself, it makes me shiver with a sense of intrigue
It makes me feel as if I'm a stranger, in a dark alley on a rainy day,
It makes me feel so mystified; thoughts of unspeakable depression settles within me,

We weren't meant to be, we weren't destined to be,
I know that, I am not your type,
But I'll promise you girl, that I'll be here forever, awaiting your decision,
I can provide you, something that "your type of guys" can't,
I can provide you, with the love you deserve
I'll love you, passionately; as I shall love you with all my heart,
I don' want to hurt you as well as, to see you get hurt,
I want to protect you, love you; I'll be here for you,

Alas, we weren't destined to be,
Not now, not later, Never
Besides, what would you even see in me?
You make me wish, that I was a better person,
That I was the one, destined to be by your side,
The one, that'll love you till the end of his life,
The one, that'll protect you,
The one, that'll be there for you,
The one, that'll be there when you need a shoulder to cry on,
I want to be *that one*,

Lately, you're just what have been on my mind, 24/7,
Endless nights, shattered dreams, crushed hopes and broken heart
Endless nights, with everlasting thoughts of you,
Shattered Dreams; of me escorting you down the aisle,
Crushed hopes; hopes of me being with you,
Broken heart, when I heard you're with him


Yet an inextinguishable fire burns in my heart,
Within this fire, lies a shattered dream, a desire to live with you,
I cannot help myself, but to still love you,
To love you for an eternity, even though you put me through a lot,

You already, crushed my hopes, broke my heart, shattered my dreams,
And extinguished the fire that burns in my heart,
I'm dead inside, just living with a desire to live with you,
I'm already dead inside,
I want to be dead,

Before you answer,
Do me a favour; if the answer is no,
Take a knife and stab me with it,
Stab me for the times; I was there for you,
Stab me, till the fire that burns in my heart, uncontrollably is no longer,
Stab me, till you understand, what I could have gave you,
Stab me, till you understand, that I am the one for you,
Stab me till I no longer feel the pain that was caused by you tearing out my heart and shredding it into pieces
Just take this knife, and stab me,
Just, end my life......