Wanting you so bad
wanting to hold you
and see your face
each night as i fall asleep i dream of you
It makes me want to cry
how your so selfish
not caring what i feel
saying something and doing another
I don't know why i bother
Telling me you don't love me and you'll see me in hell
trying to ignore it
just pretend it doesn't bother me
But I can't hide what i've felt for you
and what you've said to me
I can;t let go of what we've shared
I can't keep sitting here crying on the floor
telling you everything is fine it's not
It hurts so bad to know
you could've been mine
Telling me you love me but you've changed your mind
I can't keep letting myself
Love you the way I do
Because im going to wind up
hurting myself or coming unglued
These foolish games that you play
exposing my insecurites
crushing them with your words
I don't know what to do right now
But i can''t keep letting my feelings 
get in the way
or i will fall
deep inside myself and never return
allowing you to play these foolish games
Ripping out my heart from the inside
allowing my self to be used
I will simply be making it worse
holding on to something
that isn't there
loving the words but nothing else
The memory of you
has come to pass
these foolish games i regret
loving you I can no longer bare
I don't love you anymore 
your just a memory to me
nothing else just words on paper
I want to let you know
I hate you and hope you rot in hell
because i won't be there