Here i am alone again
trying to release all of this pain so deep inside
as you hit me again and i fall to the floor
saying bitch you did it again
as you left i took the blade and cut another memory
into my imperfect body
feeling the pain i no longer can do
no matter how hard pushing on this blade
i cant replace the feelings inside
everything i once knew has  gone away
and i am tired of fighting
tired of lying
and tired of pouring my soul out to you 
and getting nothing in return
tired of being left alone at night
for you to return yelling
because i did something wrong again
its always the same
why didnt you do this
why did you do that
like im your child
so i took a swig of my Jack Daniels to take away your face
to block out what youve done to me
it will never go away
no matter how hard i try
now i cant stop cutting myself
i wish you'd go away
so i can be me again
not your perfect fantasy