 | Once and for all I can sleep and not dream that I have to find you. I have found you again, and eventhough theres an ocean of skies and land between us, I have never felt you closer.After 12 years, I could give myself the pleasure of feeling you close again, but I'm not going to because I'm afraid. I'm afraid of sorrow, eventhough I'm used to that. I remember the smell of the roses you used to take to my home every afternoon, after school. I remember the bible I used to read and pray to be with you forever, where I saved all the roses I had from you. That book still smells like you, and I. I remember the sound of your fingers in the piano, in front of my window. I remember looking up to your balcony, and seeing you looking down to my window, without knowing that eachother was there, looking. I remember the times when we used to run up to the roof, and sit there, look at the moon, and kiss all night, for hours. I remember when I heard I had to leave you, the most painfull moment of my life, up todate. I remember the days after that, I couldn't kiss you, because I would break in tears, from the thought of not being with you for years. Like now, its been 12 years I left, and I was right, I knew I was losing you forever. Eventhough we promised a thousand things, God took you away from me, and life kept you away. I tried to rescue you and I was late. My life will be a sorrow always, evethough I married, had a child, and went on. No one knows how much I really have you deep in my heart, in my dreams, in my thoughts. I have found you again because you came to me after one thousand calls, one thousand cryes to life, one thousand thoughts, one thousand tears. And now I feel you so close, but you are so far, so far that I cant imagine how wonderful your life is without me, just like God wanted it to be. I will keep on reading your e mails, and dreaming that you are here, until the day you chose to fly to me, and I will open my arms to you, ill leave everything and anything behind to be with you. This is my promise. |  |
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