I think for the first time,

I don't need a razor blade to feel the pain.

Because I don't see any blood dripping,

Although my heart is pounding with pain.

I have never felt so much pain,

As I'm feeling right now.

I've ruined something in my life,

That was extremly important to me.

I know that I'll never get him back,

Because he gave me too many chances.

He was my everything,

And I decided to take advantage of that.

I broke up with him,

Thinking it was for the best.

But now that it's over,

It's the worst thing I did.

He gave me everything I needed,

Which that was love.

He loved me for what I was,

Not how I looked or dress.

We were perfect together,

We had the best times.

Everything was heading the right direction,

We even talked about our future.

We already had a baby name,

And I'm not even pregnant.

What we had,

Was different from all other couples.

Not only did we have love,

We had friendship.

Friendship is important in a relationship,

Because that's how love grows.

We could talk about everything,

And trust me, we sure did.

We also had communication,

Which is also important to keep a relationship growing strong.

Our fights didn't tear us apart,

They only brought us closer.

But I can't live a lie,

Pretending he's the one.

Who knows, maybe he is,

But I have to give it some time.

Our long distance relationship,

Was driving me crazy.

I kept thinking,

Where is he when I need him?

I don't want to laugh,

Or cry,

Or smile,

Without him.

That's what I've been doing though.

If I cry,

I want a shoulder to cry on.

If I laugh,

I want someone to laugh with me.

If I smile,

I want him to smile back at me.

I don't have his shoulder,

Or his laughter,

Nor do I have his smile.

This is the hardest thing I've ever done,

But who said life is easy?

I'm becomming more and more weak,

As the clock ticks by.

I don't want to be so weak,

That I shatter.

So I'll do this as fast as I can.

I love you with all my heart,

But I need to let go.