Katyu
sits in his room staring into empty space. Alone again…feeling abandoned…what
else is new? His heart can’t seem to take it anymore. It has been shattered,
trampled over and played with for countless times. Thus, it is heavy and weary.
Maybe the problem is his trouble expressing how he really feels or is it
because nobody can understand him even Kyle? And now Kyle threatens not to see
him anymore unless he does what her older sister tells him.

“What
the fuck?” he says to himself.

And
so he left her house feeling preyed upon by hungry wolves. And this time he is
really mad about the things that continue to unveil. He is angry about the
pressure he is feeling, he is angry about the insane agreement he had with her sister,
he is angry about Kyle pushing him again, he is angry about his dad not
understanding a word he is saying.

“You’re
not gonna get what you want by pushing me to the ground, Kyle. None of you will
get what you want by trying to put pressure on me”, He says again to himself as
he lay on the bed.

And
if Kyle never sees him again God knows what he’s going to do. I’d like to write
about it now but it would prolly be a good idea to keep it as a surprise.

Moving
on…

Katyu
now is walking in dark clouds. For his only light, which is Kyle, has abandoned
him again. If not for Scylla and Charybdis he would have probably slit his
throat already. Well, I guess he thought that having two odd women, one lesbian
the other is a second degree neurotic, as house companions suits him well for
the moment. Misery loves company they say.

No
matter how chaotic his heart is, the music plays on. A number of hurtful words
that was said to him several times for several days, including today, dance
along in his mind. Knowing Katyu so well, I am certain He won’t forget those
painful words; those painful accusations will be etched in the corners of his
mind. And it’s killing him. It eats away his self-esteem, his self-confidence,
his very hope. Perhaps there is really no hope for Katyu. Perhaps all that Kyle
brought to him were false hope. And as the thunderous aching inside of him
rages on another ounce of humanity within him dissipates into the abyss.