Been there!
May likely be there again!
Keep your chin up.....if she loves you truly...she won't leave
If she does leave....shrug it off painfull.....but then she wasn't the right girl.
Always....just do the best you can
Don't be bitter
Care about others
Dream of love
Pray to God
Someone somewhere will love you in the end....just for you!
You can't control any of it
So you just give your love and hope it works out

Ive been riding this roller coaster of financial highs and lows most of my marriage and yet not once did i ever want to leave my husband the thought never crossed my mind.....there is a saying that behind every successful man is a good woman.
You need to find that good woman, the one you have Id have to say is dragging you down probably more than the economy, walking away from some one you love hurts but heals all over again when you find the one that will love and support you with no conditions,
this one is giving conditions on her love which is not really love at all but rather convience until some one richer or better looking comes along.
You have a poets heart and in turn a poets love she does not deserve you, but some where out there some one does......Leave, hurt, heal and find the one your are meant to be with.....

As for your poem it is very good keep writing....

Yes, I'm certain most of us have been there!! It is a rollercoaster for sure and I believe in what pooying6 said. Maybe she is not your true calling, I believe u will do well. Keep your chin up and keep writing!!!!! Good Job!!!!! Maybe it is right in front of you :)