So the past weeks have been interesting. sprinkled with anxiety attacks that i thought i've gotten over.
I've found understanding in three people that i never thought would break down and admit wrongfullness.
My dad, my mom and my boyfriend's ex.
Having both my parents admit to me that I shouldn't have had to go through everything that happened was
amazing. It's honestly all i've wanted since i was like 13.
They each said it at different times, in their own ways, but i found it interesting that it all happened within weeks.
Having Yvonne admit that she understood where i was comming from FINALLY and apologizing for being bitchy
was super amazing. I never thought that would happen.
and guess what everyone? i apologized to her first actually! because she was msging Ace, trying to start a
new connection with which to manipulate from. and he handled it so well, i didn't even get involved at all, he
just said what needed to be said and finished it, and she finally understood i think.

so i sent her this friendly little message (and it took alot for me to be civil with this woman, you guys don't even
know what she's participated in putting me through)

heyy, i just wanna talk for a min and not fight.

alias told me that you msgd him, it's all good, but i kinda just
want you to know that the whole situation that happened was like a
living hell for me, i mean we were together up until the morning that i
saw you that day in the park, we had spent that past night together.
and i know it's not really your fault entirely, but i've never been so
heartbroken.
and that's all really, like it's an unfortunate situation.

and i am sorry about some of the things i said to you, it wasn't right for me to direct all that towards you.

peace jayla.



and she says



hey, honestly i never even knew that you and Ace were together. he never really told me .

like i knew afterwards and i knew that you guys were seeing eachother before but i never knew

he told you that day that i got there he didnt want to be with you.

and to be honest i would be angry too.

i dont want to get back with ace and to be honest even if i would im possitive he wouldnt anyways,

dont get me wrong though, i DONT want to get back with him.

im sorry for being snotty to you, i just left on bad terms and i didnt like that


(it's funny how she passes all the blame on to him, and it's understandable, he did mastermind the whole
situation. but i swear to you this girl knew what was going on, i had actually contacted her a few different times
when i thought they were "just friends" to be friendly like, hi, i'm jayla, i'm dating your ex, lol. and she WAS
shocked the first time i told her. and then we never talked for a long time. but also, a reason i held her accountable
was that alias tried to finish everything with her time and time again. everytime we would fight about her he would
call her or send her texts saying we can't talk anymore, it's ruining my relationship and i'm not going to do that.
i swear, i was there when he called her on two different occasions, and she was like "kay bye" and hung up. yet she
always ALWAYS tries to initiate shit with him again. it's his fault for being sucked in to that. but i love how he's not anymore.
and this time was no different, i believe with everything that she was trying to get that all started again by msging him being like
"i just wanna talk, and see how you're doing. i know you and jayla are still together and i'm happy for you. you can tell her i'm
sorry for being snotty to her. i hope you guys trust eachother enough that you can talk to who you want to now", is she clueless???
and also, if she was really sorry to me, and wanted to become OUR friend (seeing as how we live together and are a family now,
everything is kinda shared) then why wouldn't she contact me about it and be a respectful woman? because she wanted him
to be all over her again. anyways, that's why i sent that message to her, just to make sure she knows i'm not controlling his actions
anymore. lol. which back then honestly i was a bit, but i had to because he was too weak back then. it's cool that things are different now
though, i'm so impressed with him!)

anyways i'm happy i think... = D