Sometimes people close their eyes way too tight. Your just so happy to finally be "HAPPY", that you really don't see everything your supposed to. Its when your in the shower crying your eyes out that you realize maybe things weren't as great. Even though you have this tough outer skin, on the inside your torn, brushed and damaged. Never surprising that that person you give your all to ends up being that same pile of crap you avoid steppin into on the sidewalk. (Sad but very true) I'm tired of being disapointed. I have no more energy to be angry. There is nothng left but a bitter person forcing herself to smile and pertend that everything is okay. Its not my fault I always end up like this, I dont like it of course. You pushed for a reaction and now I'm trapped this way.