Why do i cry so much?
why do i miss that warm touch
of someone who cared.

before things went weird.

i feel hated, unwanted and not needed
i tried so very hard but never succeeded
these feelings i can no longer bear
but to speak of them i do not dare
because in my eyes its wrong
its like one of those awful sad songs
i keep holding in
until i finally break down again.

i feel like im going back to those days
the days with all my evil ways
where pain was no object
and my wrists were the product
of a broken bleeding heart
i have no way to make these thoughts part
my heart is torn and i have no one
so this next time i will make it a slow one.

for anyone who reads this please dont get mad
just keep in mind i am very sad.

depression has taken its toll on me.

i wish someone could open their eyes and see.

i miss who i was before
before everything had changed
i wish i could go back
because then my world would be no longer pained.