This is a beautiful poem. Correction needed from "bare" to "bear"....just a minor change. I know just the way you're feeling. I often have fought the feeling of feeling like that and still sometimes do. Some fall in love very deeply...love is everything to them (me included...I'm just like that). It's the MOST painful thing to realize the one you love and built your dreams around does not love you. They never do realize the pain you suffer. I try to comfort people with this: Love is two things: 1) you're love and care for someone (that comes from your heart); and 2) Your hopes and dreams of love which you willingly give to them.

The pain you feel is your hopes and dreams dying and it's hard. The very moment you most need love...nobody is there. This is where faith and friends get you through. We can't control how other will know us, treat us, undertand us or accept us but we can try to show kindness to others. It's an act of faith and you must keep expectations low. Still, some kindness will come your way and if so you will be appeciative.

Realize that the "love" that you have for that person...it remains. Don't let it turn to hate. If love was honest then you wish them well and wish for them to be happy. Hate to say it but sometimes you have to take a little sadness to understand the nature of things. Sadness is not all bad.....it means most of all that you really cared about something. If so, you have a heart. Be happy you do....though it's hurting. Turn your good heart outward to others and that is a good use of your life....rather than contemplating it's end. Have a little faith in God and that there are reasons for your life that you might not be able to see from this sadness. Usually the very point we are most sad in life is the bottom of a trend and if you could plot it on paper you might understand that it's bound to move upward again. Have faith that it will!

Sorry for this long reply. I always write at risk of looking like a fool. Out there somewhere may not be the woman you imagined and it may not be this woman you spent years with...it may be a woman who is more perfectly suited for you who would be a good partner to you....and most of all, love you.

omg i love this poem ur great. that is so sweet and sorta twisted in that suicide way ugh its briliant!