 | There's these 2 guys and they both think they're my bf! One, named Keith was my bf from the start but this other one named Chris thinks he is but he asked me " would you go out with me if you wasn't with anyone?" I said yes...But i was with someone... A while back before he asked me that he said he wanted to give up on everything and he wanted to die. He already tried to suffocate himself once, I just wanted to help him, not make him want to be my bf! I've prayed to God he'd find someone to love... Yes, he did but i did'nt mean me . :'( I don't know what to do now.... I love my first bf that i still go out with. But now Chris loves me...he says he wants to get married when we get older and i'm scared because I don't want me and Keith to fall apart...:'( Al;most every day i cry because i thnk about it too much, It's making me sick! And i'm scared because i don't know what to do and i would be amazed if i can find a solution to this that won't break anyone's heart... Please....I want any advice! Even if you don't know if it's good that's ok! I need hope to get through this too.....I just need someone to try to help me! Even if it don't solve my problem it'll work in some way, it will give me more hope. Please! I'm desperate, help me!!!!!!!!!!! I keep wondering how could trying to help someone turn into something so bad? I never wanted to be one of those people who cheated, it's wrong to cheat and it's killing me because i am doing it. I need help! I pray every night for a solution.... I don't know what to do and i'm scared! I just want it to be over with. I wished for a bf all these years and i geuss i got the double... Now i'm wishing that i never had no one to love because if i ever love then all that happens is people get hurt! I'm not ment to love!!! I want to get this problem over with so i can live my life alone! :'( All i do is breaking my heart or someone else's if i love. I can't imagine this problem being solved without someone getting hurt. Please help me!!! I'm begging you!!! I feel so alone because i've searced for love problems like mine and no one has one like mine! :'( I want to die! Please help me!!!!!!! |  |