Swallow this painted mirror of perfection

With hope the shattered edges tear my inside

Into something more significant

Something less resistant to the cause

That I’ve decided to run away with

So I press my face against the glass

And open my mouth

Stuffing all in that I feel is necessary

Far from ordinary

I only wish to change the ugliness I feel inside

These walls are being built

Those topple skies

And pour the darkness into my life

Like night

I am persuaded

That this is the only way I was ever meant to live

I conceive a million asking question

But receive no relevant answers from my thoughts

I now know that the answers are not within me

And never will be

After my endless end

Do I pretend that I lived without a heavy heart

That this callousness was really vulnerability

Yeah I’m vulnerable

I’m open

And delayed to feel your pain

My pain

Their pain

It’s all the same

Work these stains into the carpet floor

I’m so close to giving up

And there is no turning back into the person I was before

Maybe all in time

I will be forgiven

Forgotten?

I believe so

But what is there to believe anymore

Without you

I am just a shallow sacrifice

The cheapest paid price

The perfect heist turned astray

I’m gonna rob these veins of life

Hold my head up high

And stare at the heavens with a look of disgust

How dare he bring me here without consent

Proposal was as simply as spitting in his face

And walking away

Why am I living without you in my life

How am I living

If you were my heart

My soul

My whole

My All

The catch me as I fall

Solid lines of red rape my wrists

Bullet, finger twitch

Switch back the hammer

Like a nail to the head

Thoughts pour from my skull blood red

And their all of you

Why did you chose not to care

Was it fair in all honesty

Didn’t you swear that you’d always love me

I know you held my heart with care

But why did you make me murder me

Stuff these sheets with flower pedals

A canvas of a beautiful death

The artistic side of me
That always held you to close to me
Your beauty my death

A single breath to say so long and sweet dreams

Falling fast asleep

Deep, deeper, dead…..