Before i start...
I may be going on and on about this
But i need to get it all out...
So just bare with me... lol..



I started to like her
My feelings just grew
I got a bit scared...
Didn't quite know what to do..

So time went on
&& i let my guard down
&& let her in...

I gave her my heart
Gave her my trust
&&
I never wanted anyone so much

She broke my trust
Which broke my heart..
but i knew we couldn't part

A second chance, she deserves,
Only because i loved this girl

Again and again
Broken trust..
Again and again
I've had enough...

But i love her too much to let her go
So i hide my feelings, don't let her know

She said i was uncaring
&& its like im not there
that really hurt me
That she didnt know how much i care

So i told her and she didn't belive me
I didn't have her trust
I tried my best
But trying isn't enough..

So i tried to prove it
I went and got help..
I got help, to prove myself to this girl

Even thats not enough..
I need to do it for myself...
But thats easier said than done
When its myself that i don't love..

So i try..
More and more each day..
But after everything i do..
Nothing is to change..

Fight after fight..
It all comes back to one thing...
One stupid mistake..

4 years ago i made this mistake..
&& after that everything changed..
I never thought of it as bad..
Or a problem or worse..

But that was 5 minutes ago..
Now she's mad i don't go to church...
I can't win
With anything i do..
Nothings good enough
Not even i love you..

But that story, ive told before...
Many timess...now its old..

Before i go i will just say this..

I loved her so much
Like never before

I was there while she was crying
I wiped away her tears
I was there to help her
I fought her fears..
I listened to her
To every word she said...

I love her..
Still to this day
&& nothing will take that away..
I may love another
But never the same
&& every time i think of love
I will always think her name.


Dedicated to Jess..
I love you && i'm sorry it turned out like this...
Belive what you like but..
I know the truth && this is it..