I swear that when it happened

I felt the world around me shake

As I lay trembling in my bed

I was crying, and wide awake

I thought we were the ones

Who are always meant to be

Yet there I lay, confused as hell

With doubts tormenting me

Within a week, my mind was set

That I loved him as a friend

He was all that I had ever known

But I finally saw the end

“Why?” He sobbed through the phone.

And I cried as my heart was shattered

“I thought you loved me, Jesus Christ!

I thought you said we mattered!”

No one could ever know

How much it broke my heart

To hear him sob through the phone

And slowly tear apart

He is and always will be

My best and greatest friend

And though I left him all alone

I’m with him till the end

I just can’t understand it

What has caused the change?

One minute I loved him

The next it all felt strange

I broke my best friend’s heart

Because I couldn’t lie

And now I am hated

And left wondering why?

Even though the months have passed

I can still hear him in my mind

His voice broke and he whispered

“How can you leave it all behind?”

I left him, my best friend

And shattered him through

But leaving him, I swear

It broke my heart too...