I     WONDER

I wonder if one day I wont care what you think.

I wonder if one day

I wont wonder what you think of me.

I wont cry myself to sleep.

I will forgive you for the pain you caused me.

I wont wonder what you feel inside or the love you hold within the words you write.

I wont wonder of the secrets you hold within.

I will not secretly somewhere in my heart want you home again.

I will ever get my old life back.

I will be able to think of you again as my dad.

I will see you as more than just another prison man.

I will see you again.

I will ever know why you put this hole in my life your life and the lives of others.

I wont want to hate you anymore.

I will write to you more.

you’ll come to see I never really hate you I just hate how this has to be.

you will ever tell me the truth of why you did what you say you didn’t do.

I wont want to cry every time your brought up or I think about when you were a part of my life.

we will have more than all these written words in letters and poems.

I wont have to stay strong and hold the tears in until I’m all alone.

my heart will re-open.

I will know all that I wonder.

I will ever stop wondering.

you will ever stop loving me.