I've suffered through similar feelings. It's hard when you give up much of yourself in defense of those you love and somehow you end up losing yourself. It's hard to get back the childhood innocence and hopefulness that we equate with happiness. Sometimes you find it in reaching out and finding to your surprise that there are people who are feeling just like you. I can assure you that you're not alone in your feelings of being broken. I still count myself in that group. The best path I've been able to find through my own searching is to find faith that God love you and has a reason just for you...even though you haven't found it yet. Also, to give kindness to others because your own suffering has taught you humility. These things will lead you back to yourself. Then perhaps love can find you again.

Thanks for posting your poem.