I sat there and watched the waves
Rushing down the river with my life away
In spite, I sat watching with false indifference
To this day I wonder if it ever made any sense
I miss my best friend, the one I traded for you
I miss my life and all the things I wanted to do
I miss my could have been drunken nights
I was busy wasting time getting hurt in our foolish fights
I should have jumped in the river and see if I'd drown
Because when I fell for you I just kept going down
And now I'm at the bottom, below the sea
I don't mean near as much to you as you did to me

I threw all I had into the river
left standing naked, only able to shiver
And this is the hole I dug for myself
But when I wanted to get out you weren't around to help
I built a ladder made of spite
And tied it with tears all made in one night

I missed my summer walks
My best friend and our late night talks
All of the high nights
You looked down on my amusement of lights
No room for childish games
You only made the exception for pet names
And now I'm stuck here with responsibilities
When you doubted my capabilities
I miss my boring days
And our pointless ways
I miss when I didn't know you enough
To know your promises were all a bluff
I miss the days when I could think without you prying my mind
I miss when I didn't care to be falsely kind
I miss when I didn't hate over you
I miss when I thought you loved me as much as I loved you