WHY CAN'T I LOOK YOU IN THE EYE AND TELL YOU THIS?
IT'S SOMETHING I ASK MYSELF EVERYDAY
BUT LET ME REMIND YOU OF ALL THE PAIN YOU GAVE ME
I WAS ONLY 10 WHEN YOU DECIDED HER OVER US
AT FIRST I COULDNT UNDERSTAND WHY MOMMY SCREAMED
I NEVER UNDERSTOOD WHY SHE WOULD SIT AND CRY
YOU THREW US OUT LIKE STRANGERS IN DESPAIR
I WANTED TO GO HOME WITH YOU
I CRIED AND CRIED ALL DAY
DRIVING MOMMY CRAZY ENOUGH TO SLAP ME :(
WHY WAS EVERYONE ANGRY WHY WAS BROTHER BEING SO REBELLIOUS?
SLEEPING IN DIFFERENT HOMES, BUT WHERE WAS DADDY?
AS MONTHS PASSED BY WE WERE FINALLY HOME BUT YOU STILL WEREN'T THERE :(
I FINALLY GOT TO SEE YOU THOUGH! EVERY SATURDAY YOU WOULD TAKE BROTHER AND ME
BUT BY THE END OF THE DAY YOU WOULD SAY GOOD BYE ONCE MORE..
AS TIME PASSED BY WE SAW YOU LESS
LATER ALL YOU DID WAS CALL
ALL OF A SUDDEN I KNOW NOTHING OF YOU
I THEN BECAME ANGRY
WHY? WHY YOU WHEN YOU TWO SEEMED SO HAPPY?
WHY WOULD YOU PREFER SOME OTHER BITCH OVER YOUR OWN CHILDREN?
THEN WHEN YOU TRIED COMING BACK WHEN THAT BITCH LEFT YOU... HOW COULD YOU??
DID YOU THINK IT WAS EASY? I HATED YOU FOR THE LONGEST TIME YOU MADE ME CRY FOR SO MANY NIGHTS
I WOULD CRY BECAUSE I WANTED TO HATE YOU!! BUT I COULDN'T BECAUSE YOUR MY DADDY :(
AND I LOVE YOU DAD EVEN THOUGH YOU PREFERED HER OVER US
AND I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU FOR BRINGING ME TO EARTH
I JUST WISH YOU WOULD HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR US
YOU WERE NOT FAIR BUT EVERYONE MAKES MISTAKES
SADLY YOUR MISTAKE MARKED ME FOREVER
AS I WRITE THIS I STILL CRY I REMEMBER EVERYTHING LIKE IT WAS YESTERDAY
DAD IM NOW 18
ISNT IT SAD U KNOW NOTHING ABOUT ME?
ISNT IT SAD HOW I CANT EVEN TALK TO YOU OR ASK YOUR ADVISE
AND WHY DO I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THAT I WORRY WHEN YOUR SICK OR CRY WHEN I THINK OF HOW LONELY YOU MUST BE IF YOU NEVER DID IT FOR ME...
I WISH I COULD TELL YOU FACE TO FACE HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU EVEN AFTER ALL YOU DID
I HOPE I CAN SOMEDAY.. BEFORE ITS TOO LATE :(