I am sitting here at home
By myself, all alone
Listening to Love songs
Rememebering our wrongs

I wish you were here
to protect me from my fears
For now, I am alone
waiting to answer my phone

As I fear for my life
Our past life together flashes before me
and the future where I'd hoped to become your wife
has become a doubt and hard to see.

All I see is hurt and pain and jelousy.
Other couples find our relationship envious
but it is I who envys their comfortable happiness.

It hurts to see how short a time they've become happy.
I'm jealous of the way they play, love, and laugh together.
I envy her smile, the way she feels when he kisses her
I hate that I can't feel that way again
I hate that her love kisses, hugs and cherishes here, as you once did me

I wish you'd kiss me that special way again
I wish you'd make me feel that same way again
I wish you'd love me the same
I wish I didn't feel so unloved and lonely
I wish we didn't have to worry
I wish I wouldn't have to say I'm sorry
I wish to stop giving in
I wish our love weren't considered a sin
I wish we could make each other happy the way I used to think we were
I wish we had more hope
The way you hate me is hard to cope
I wish I were what you want

Selfishly, I hope you don't see your big mistake and choose another
But I do want you to be happy
but I want you for myself
I wish you would trust me
I wish you weren't so controlive
I wish you'd love me how I am and no one else
I wish we'd love eachother to our extent
I wish I didn't have to second-guess
I wish I'd trust you
I wish you'd trust me
I wish we had done many things differently,
but It should all end up for the good in the end.

Rememeber I will forever only love you and try for you
Please just love me and treat me the way you did

I miss how we used to be.
I miss the old us.
I miss the younger us.
I miss how much you loved me.
I miss how you'd spoil me, cherish me, and care for me
I miss how I was still the one to please you
I wish you'd realize how much I do love you

I miss you.