oh kay so here's what's going on:

1.) i fall for this boy 2 years ago
2.) he was cheating on me with his "baby's momma"
3.) "baby's momma" goes psycho b***h on me
4.) "baby's momma" apologizes after weeks {{after i broke up with him}}
5.) "baby's momma" and i become 'best' friends
6.) my actual best friend becomes best friends with her too
7.) everything's good for awhile
8.) "baby's momma" goes psycho on me again b/c i'm talking to my NOW ex.
9.) i wanted to be friends with everyone
10.) {{back to the present.. sorta... 2 years later}} same thing back and forth with my ex, steven and ashley "baby's momma"
11.) i go and have fun with steven, putt putting for the first time ever, i had a great time
12.) despite the fact that he was hitting on me the whole time!
13.) {{1 month later}} ashley calls me up, guilt tripping me over the putt putting
14.) i tell her i hate her
15.) she tells me that she never will be my friend again.
16.) i say, basically, the same thing
17.) my best friend, melinda, got upset b/c steven was telling EVERYONE that we made out and all this crap
18.) no one believes my side of the story
19.) melinda and i have been the best of friends since before kindergarten....
20.) so it's really hurting me that she sees their side instead of mine...
21.) this was about a few weeks ago to a month ago...
22.) melinda doesn't smile like she used to... i can't get her to
23.) she doesn't laugh either
24.) just last night... she told me to go over to a party her sister and brother-in-law was throwing... and ashley was there
25.) we had both agreed to be nice to one another... i'd do anything ANYTHING to make her happy
26.) i went even though i said that i didn't want to....
27.) she basically stuck by ashley the whole time.... shows where her alliance is placed....
28.) there's other times she's shown it too
29.) i also lost someone i'm STILL in love with about two or three months ago b/c of all that 'steven and ashley' crap
30.) i hate them both... not melinda
31.) but ashley doesn't deserve to go through the bull**** steven puts her through... i told her that last night too...
32.) i felt bad... guilty
33.) but now i just feel.... lonely... left alone... alienated.... lost... in need of some help; mentally
34.) i'm still friends with the one i fell in love with...
35.) and two nights ago... he was so close to me... but i got scared and pushed myself away from him....
36.) i wanted to cry b/c i did it w/o thinking... and it seemed to have hurt him...
37.) i wouldn't have been so scared.. if he didn't have Liz {{the one he cheated on me with}}
38.) yea, he cheated... but only b/c people like steven and ashley kept putting the image in his head that i was cheating on him!
39.) i love him. i love melinda.
40.) i hate both ashley and steven.... i feel pity for ashley...

HELP!!!




{{if none of this made sense to you... just message me... i'll tell you the whole story instead of the cliff-notes}}