im lost in antipathy

falling through graces arms

cant find myself today

falling for your charms

I blend and I mold

truly malleable 

yet my heart feels cold

surely silent

i can feel my mind race for words

before i speak they fall apart

my own reassurance is absurd

as i search for all of your flaws

i wandered through my soul

and found myself in yours

i find your words on my tongue 

parts of life i didn't explore

what do you want...

a blessing?

all of them come with a curse.

attached to the bottom

on a string

sealed with a lonesome kiss.

my mind is made

my paths unclear

my soul will stay

with you,

right here

not from entitlement  or false pretenses 

not from excitement or misconceptions

not from need or forced desire

not from lust or simply tired

not from loneliness

not from requirement 

not from sadness 

not from obligation

but from the heart. 

somewhere in between, a soul divided

a simple start

where all your faults and mine subsided

the faults remain 

the mind can change

I will be your risk

your sudden chance

your maddening thoughts

your muted dance

your in between

your perfect balance

your nightly dream

your needed solace

walk your way 

and ill walk mine

we will compromise

we will solidify

well find the breaks

and flaws

and faults

well find the holes

and cracks

and tears

and when they are all out 

for all to see

there will be no one left

save you and me