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you know whats weird about the whole thing is that he use to say was going to fall in-love with him, i mean i love him but am i inlove with him? i mean how would i be able to tell? what would my action or thoughts be? he tells me everytime i say "i love you" he'll say either "no you don't" or "sure" if i didn't then would he be able to tell? i feel that i do but does that justify what i have done? the first things on my mind is, "i wonder if he's right and what if he's right? and the first things on my heart is "i do love you, more than i can say" and my fav "STFU brain". Is love really a thought or a desire of the heart to not be alone? or is it a stronger feeling than of lust or just another useless feeling like envy? they say "fear nothing but fear it's self" and "love with all your heart if true" but what about the fear that your love is not true? he's always been there for me after everything i have been through. I asked him, "when you say you love me is it true?" and he replied, "i mean everything i say..unlike some people". everytime he say's i dont, is it wrong when i start to think that?..