Why me?
I can't understand
Why did you choose me?
Was it something I said, did?
Do you have control over the things that happen to me?
Do you let them happen?
Have you ever once tried to stop them?
Am I going to be okay?
Will I get through it all?
Where'd my hope go?
I remember,
Or, do I?

It's numbing- I'm cold,
But it's so warm,
Are you there?
Am I?
I can't see you!
You can't be there,
I see your footprints,
No- I can't,
They've disappeared,
Just like you,
Where do you run to?
Will you take me with you,
Next time?
If there is a next time,

It's raining,
Not outside,
Inside,

Happiness?
What's that?
The word sounds familiar,
Oh yes!
I do recall,
Something I felt...
... Before the pain ...

I see the answer,
It would be wrong,
Right?
Of course-
Not.
I want to,
They want me to,
I know they do,
Don't I?
I'm confused,
So lost,
I'll just do it,
I pick it up,
Pull the trigger,
And ...