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Am I foolish?

By andrienne
06.10.2007
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	I jz broke up with my bf. Well, in words he dumped me for another girl. I'm in such great grief that I don't even feel like moving on anymore. There's nothing to life without him. He was my everything. We were normal couple. We did everything together. I helped him in his probs and stuff. But about 1 month ago, I've been having doubts about my feelings for him. I wanted to leave him but thinking of the things we've been through made me hold on to out relationship. He always asks me about wht I want but I never hear him say about what he wants. So I was thinking, am I wht he ever wanted? So I asked him a little silly questions, and he thinks I'm trying to break with him. I was just trying to be sure of wht he thinks and feels about me. Just a few days ago I asked for a break because my head's so stressed up with the pressure my aunts and mum has been giving me abt my upcoming exams. I thought that he would understand. We didn't even totaly isolated ourselves from each other and yet, he told me that he has fallen for a new girl in his school. She is 2 years elder though. I was so crushed when he told me via sms. So I asked him whether he could call. He did call on that night, talking about it. He said he liked us both evenly and could't make the choice. He said he would give me the answer the following day and hung up. Then, I started crying cos I guessed that he would choose her. They are in the same school anyways. More time to spend together. Minutes later he called and said that he talked to her, and everything between them was over. I was partially glad but still insecure. "Everything between me and her are over. I kinda think or her more as my big sister than to a lover. So don't worry, I'll never leave your side again. I love you and that's all that matter now. So stop crying." was wht he said. Then, I felt relieved. I stayed up all night tht night and only slept at 6am the nest day. I skipped school. I text msged him before I went to bed, "I'm glad I'm sure of how you feel now. You made me realise I can't live w/o you. Love you." When he woke up to go to school he replied, " I'm glad to see my dar feeling better now. I love you and tht matters." I slept thru till 1pm and msged him, "morning dar it's a new day for us!" and I waited for his reply when his school ends. He texted me at 4pm saying "I tot I would feel happier but the truth is I;m not, I guess my heart doesn't love you anymore, I'm sorry if it's sudden but it's true. It has to end I'm sorry." How can he just do that?! After a day at school, another day with 'HER' and it changes his words the night before?! We talked and talked after that and he says it's over. He chooses her over me. I couldn't stop thinking that it's over! I just wanted a break not TO break! All this happens just right before my exms too. I've so depressed and I don't care what happens to me anymore. Would he care if I died now?

Iceziko

420 days ago Reply

Im in your position also It happen 2 me 2 mo. ago but still im holing on 2 him after what he done there is not much that i can say but just be strong If u want 2 hold on go right ahead because I am too just remember dont bother him Dont call him let's him think u totally over him but u r hurting.

1westside8

418 days ago Reply

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girl it aint even like that...just keep yo head up and learn from your mistakes...let it make you stronger..

lexizworldz

413 days ago Reply

i know how u feel just try to stay strong eventually the pain will sub side dont think that its completely gone but know that someone out there is going to love you and that you are beautiful and can get anything you want

redkull2006

402 days ago Reply

It will hurt not matter how long it had been. the feeling of your heart broken will stay with you forever. Because I got my heart broken and Im over it but the pain will always be here with me. It help me in a way you know. but you should have known that he would break up with you that night.

evaoscar1430

104 days ago Reply

dont be a fool. get up and keep going. get over it.

RedKull2006: how can you say your over it but the pain is still there? you dont make sense. get over it too.

Carter12

104 days ago Reply

Yes u Have to Move on Cause such Is Life, U Might Even Find One More Special Than Him Ok

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