Dear Chris,

        i loved you to bits. and isn't it funny how we never really appreciate what we have until it's gone.
you obviously didn't know how you were needed. i dont think we knew how much you meant.
and every single moment i hate myself for not letting you know. and i hate myself for being so self absorbed.
i won't ever forget, any passing comment i would never remember, had it been given from any
one else's lips.
i wish so fucking bad i could change it.
the memories are too few, miss you, miss you.
not a day goes by, just pointless hours and empty
minutes. and i hate myself. wishing i could've taken all your pain away,

Love Jayla