Part 1: The Abuse

I open my eyes, waking from another nightmare
To find myself in
another horrid dream
Drugs coursing through my veins, escape my
only care
Yet even in this world I can only scream
Unable to
flee from this torturing pain
My fragile mind breaking, crumbling
down
Being driven slowly mad and insane
Mouth a gape, yet out
comes no sound
This drug becoming my life, my key to bliss

The needles, just a sweet venomous kiss

Being consumed, inwards by my consuming lust

Thirsting for the fleeing freedom of this drug

Trapped in my mind, even myself I do not trust

Wrapped in these illusions, a suffocating hug

Yet still I cannot escape, I cannot run from drug's allure

They have possessed me, shackled, chained my soul

In my mind I surrended, given up on finding the cure

For I am now nothing but a slave, a fool, burnt up coal

Part 2: The end

I am so tired, these nights and days wear on me

My mind is so clouded, I cannot see any more

I know it is this drug, I know I must flee

Desperation and fear flood in me, to my core

Wanting to have one last moment of control

Wanting to at least say when I die, when I expire

A knife, the tool of my release, to free my soul

Agonizing pain, searing along my arms, fire

Blood oozing through these crimson lines I make

The knife dancing savagely through my flesh

Feeling my life growing weaker, I begin to quake

My body covered in a living, bloody mesh

Yet more of my life empties, pools around me

Unable to move, weariness smothers over my mind

Laying in this blood, my blood, now a darkened sea

Eyes drooping, my heart dimming, death now signed

Yet still in these last moments I hang on to life

Unable to let go so easily against this crushing pain

Even though life had so much suffering and strife

Even though my life was dull, ordinary and plain

Clutching with useless hands, trying to save myself

Blood still flowing between my fingers, pooling

Each second I lasted was an my unknown wealth

I lay there, knowing it was over, who was I fooling

Unable to hold onto my soul, I let myself go

Darkness consuming my vision and mind

So weak I was, I never really tried to know

To find this life's answer, to find my flow






A Four part Poem I am making... ^.^" kinda taking a while cause I can't think of the next two parts, or to be more precise, how to start them... o well!