This is a letter, a letter to you
It's everything you've waited to hear
It's everything I didn't want to say
This isn't fake feelings, they are really real

You tell me all the time to open up
You tell me don't be afraid
And I never spoke a word
But this is something that can no longer be delayed

You make me feel unimportant
You make me see all my flaws
You make me fall into depression
And then the real me I finally saw

I'm weak and naive
I'm stupid and misunderstood
I'm irritable and rejected
I'm guarded and stubborn

I can't do anything right
I can't make my own decisions
All because I'm afraid that you'll say
I'm not the girl you envisioned

Sad thing is you'll never receive this letter
You'll never know how much I really loved you
You'll never know why I did what I did tonight
You'll never be able to construe

Tonight you'll call and call but no answer
You'll begin to worry thinking something has gone wrong
And then someone will eventually answer your calls
And then you'll receive the message of my plans all along

How I had the knife ready in hand
And as you said goodbye it started sinking into my skin
How I wished you would had given me a reason to hold on
And how that one last single crystal tear slid down my chin

This is a letter, a letter to you
It's nothing of what  you've waited to hear
It's everything I didn't want to happen
But it looks like my end is here