You and me are struggling with the same things. You could be a hobo, or a ski bum if you could ski...or join a rock band or blues band. This is how the Hippie movement began in the 60s, and to be honest with you...their ideas were really ahead of their time (they'd be perfect for today). You're a nice girl..very bright...so you'll do fine whatever you decide to do. And if doing nothing is the option you choose....be good at it!! Have fun!!

If you should ever have a child that will be the thing that changes your view and your motivation. I'm sure your feelings are very very common these days. I feel it a lot too though our ages are different. It really is, in the end, all about being with someone you love. If you don't have that...you really don't have much.

Don't let it get you down... It will all work out somehow.

Live your life the way you want. To hell with what every one else thinks. You are the one that has to answer for your mistakes. You are the one that reapes what you sew. You are the one that looks at your self in the mirror each and every day. We all live life very different. You seem to be very torn and pulled in all directions and that is sad......very sad. Dont let any one pull you down! Dont let any one make you feel anything but happy. If you have some one in your life that is taking you down with them push them over board get rid of them....let them drown .....the hell with them..........be what you want......be happy in what ever it may be. .....take care........ds

hi hun, you're amazing!
i swear, its like you read my mind.
honestly, you've just summed up my inner turmoil.
i hate my job. the only reason i have it is cause i have my sis and grams to take care of.
shit i'd loooooove to just pitch a tent somewhere far far from society and do what the hell i want.
i cant stand the shallowness and greed that fuels people today.
i get fucken depressed when i'm at work, sometimes i even get sick. its like i'm allergic to that atmosphere....
i feel like i dont belong here, like there's somewhere i'm supposed to be.
not here, but a place where individuality, creativity and openness is life, not shunned like in this world...
....i feel u sweetie, hang in there.
something great is just round the corner for you.

wow, you are exactly like me! that's so cool, it makes me feel better already .
thanks for reading and for all your support everyone. i know i'll be so happy one day, as will you all.