 | Someday I will be able to forget you. Someday I’ll be able to laugh and take this all as a lesson I need to learn in love. I will allow myself to grieve and hurt as of the moment because I know there’s no other way to deal with these.But rest Assured that I will, from now on, give myself the respect I badly needed. It’s not that I didn’t gain respect when I was with you. It’s just that I forgot to give myself the worth I deserve and gave everything to you thinking that if I do, I might be able to change your heart and make you love me too. But things changed for me now. I need that self-respect a lot and now is the time to give it to myself. Now is the time to tell myself that my happiness is not attached to you or to anyone else. Yes, I will cry and I will feel trampled but I will never be defeated. I will bounce back… in my own time… one day at a time. I will soon forget you and I will soon be able to think about you without this heavy feeling I have inside. I will be able to text you and feel okay even if you don’t reply. I will be able to sit alone and not look at the entrance gate, hoping you would suddenly show up. I will bounce back. I’m not as weak as I thought I am. When you broke my heart I realized that I’m strong and I’m tough and in time I will be able to deal with this pain. These are big words from me as of now but they are not impossible. Maybe someone I deserve is out there, waiting for a chance for me to notice him. And I will find him. I swear I will. But this time I will be more careful. I’ve learned a lot of things from you and because of that I’m thankful… or maybe I will learn how to be thankful to you for everything. For every memory, for every smile, for every laughter, for every sadness, for every loneliness and for every pain you’ve put me through. I will be a much better person after this. Maybe this is just God’s way of making me feel the right way of loving. I’ve given much to you and left nothing for myself. But after this, I will know how to love without losing everything. Pride is the only thing I have left now and I will never ever let that be taken away… not by you, not by anyone who would come into my life after you.
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