 | I'm Margaux and I'm in my late 20's. Let me share you my story. The story I'll never tire to share...I've known this guy for a couple of years way back in 90's. I can clearly remember how it started.
I was a Grade V transferee at a co-ed school at that time we used to fight at petty things I don't know why. We used to quarrel like cats and dogs! Until one day I realized that I've fallen in love. To think that at that time I was only 11 years old. I just cant resist the feeling so strange but true! Whenever I see him around with other girls I easily break up and cry. I then build my own fantasies with him. At night I dreamt of him. In the morning when I wake up all I think of is him. There's no boring day for me as long as I see him! There was one time that I got this extreme fever at 40 degrees but even that instance did not hinder me to go to school. That's the most funny part! I don't know if this has happened to you but it did to me! One thing more, whenver he's around I shiver and perspires a lot! oh, sweat! My friends laugh at me at that time at the way I react!
So years pass by.. Many girls came in and out of his life but there was no chance for me to get in. Until, were in Fourth Year High School, he started to be nicer and sweeter to me but I kept on ignoring him! I love him, yes I totall do! but I got this feeling that he might be fooling around. Knowing him as "playboy" sort, I rather suit my self to sitting alone than stick with him. The more I ignore him the less the chance of winning him! oh, silly me! Then the day of our graduation came, he asked me "Can we go to the same school?" but I fearlessly answered "No!" this is another wasted chance. So, yes I went to Manila and he was left in our province. But even the distance didn't hinder me to love him more and more. He was my life! My only one. College years wasn't complete without him swirling and twirling in my head. There was this one time, I was in class all I see in the blackboard was his face. Funny though! one time I was walking along the University Belt I saw this young guy ahead of me I tried walking faster just to see his face. You know why? For I thought that the guy I was chasing was him! Weird right?
So sembreak comes, I got the chance to come home! Yes, finally come home and see him! And yes indeed. He visited me at home! Yes I loved the feeling! He asked forgiveness for what he've done when where in Gr.V... He reminded me of one instant, He teased me a lot and I cried telling him that when I get older and you'll court me you'll never get the chance! Know what he answered? He answered, "I don't need the chance! Who do you think you are? I'll never court you!" See how bad he was!!! But he was good enough for asking me forgiveness, so I gave in! As much as I wanted him to be my boyfriend I blew again my chance though! (*_*) When he was about to leave our house he tried kissing me but unfortunately I resist. Again?!!! So his kiss ended up in my nose! Funny ha?! That started a constant visit from him!!! We didn't have the chance to have the so called " relationship as gf-bf thingy but we act as one! I think that was only mutual understanding between us! One time, he visited with this unexplainable question in his face? Want to know why?Because he saw me with this guy and he burst up with jealousness! As if his my boyfriend?! Assuming huh! So thats it! I came back to manila came home every now and then, seeing him once in a while!
Then one sembreak I heard from him that he want to share a secret to me. He had three child at that time! But that matter didn't frustrate me of loving him! Were sweet. Still so sweet! Until the news came to me. He has a girlfriend it hurt me a lot but I need not be affected because I didn't have the right! So, I decided to have mine! So that's it living separately..But eventhough, I still loved him! I'll never tire loving him!
At this point in time. He already have settled with his wife and 2 child! I don't know. I think the saying "First love never dies" is true!!! For no matter the tide came, no matter the years past, no matter problems set in. He still remained in my heart. He'll always hold a special place in my heart! Honestly, how I wish I was in the shoes of her wife doing what she used to do!!! Though I've accepted the reality it'll never be us.. Never at all!!! But he'll still be my bestfriend I used to call him. A dear bes to me!
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